Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Searching for a job in this "financial climate" is certainly a drag. But as time goes by my options seem to increase rather than decrease.
The prison job in Gardner is interesting, but the response from Bonnie (the director) was somewhat lukewarm. Keeping options open.
Friday, November 21, 2008
Monday, November 17, 2008
Sunday, November 16, 2008
I started a new web page at comcast...let see how fast I lose interest in that endeavor.http://home.comcast.net/~mtdurfee/site/?/home/
And Now for the ducks!!!!!!!!
Cute little bastards eh?
So what is the point of all this stuff; Do you even have to ask?
My god! It is so clear that this is the struggle of man (and beast) with delusion and greed, ultimately leading to suffering.
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
I someday hope to travel to tibet, I just hope that there is a tibet left when the appetite for control and destruction by the chinese government is satiated.
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Connections to self, to water, earth to my grandfather to buddha or Hitler seem so evident, but just out of reach. Even my own children seem with me and yet separate and it is not something I can logically reason out.
Talking to my daughter a picture of her appears in my mind...is that how she really looks?
Lying in bed with Samantha last night, sometimes we were the same person, other times not even in the same universe. The more I explore this the more confused I seem to be.
Saturday, March 15, 2008
I went to a Boston Bruins game with Harry today, very nice premium box seats and all, we sat amongst the other teams fans.
Everything was going well until the third period, Boston was down 2 to 1 and the crowd was getting loud and I could feel my mind winding up with the raw excitement and I did it.
I cannot believe that the words "BITE HIM IN THE THROAT!" left my lips or that just a few minutes later "YOU NEED TO KILL HIM!" just a few minutes later...what would buddha say?
Hopefully he would know just what to say, I don't?
Thursday, March 13, 2008
Both life and self are verbs. Think about this.
Life is a continuum of events moment to moment one after another.
Self is a continuum of wanting or averting, when used as a verb.
The middle way of thinking promotes harmony by avoiding the extremes of these verbs or minimalizing their significance.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
It is invariably the people who have suffered a loss, whether death or stroke or a limb, and how they react, what they are internally composed from. And those things stay with me. It may be because I am still learning how to react to things, after blunting it all those years by ignoring it distracting it or drowning it when the time came to work it out in my head.
I mean some people's silent reactions are so strong that you can feel them, like a wave of heat or cold or both that echos sorrow.
Nowadays I am noticing alot more, my head has cleared since the "troubles",and I plan to use that lost ability to notice and just stay with the moment...
Monday, March 10, 2008
Sunday, March 9, 2008
Saturday, March 8, 2008
As far as physical accomplishments...well the house is a little cleaner, there is less junk in the yard and the laundry is usually done reasonably quickly.
Me and the dogs have found a great friendship, indoors and out. Walking and exploring the woods and pond around the house has been probably the best times I have had in years. I always loved the woods and streams and lakes when I was growing up and always had at least one dog along for company.
So this is what retirement is like...sign me up!
All things arise and pass away, alas there is work that needed to be done. So I brought my Red Manifesto (marx would be sooo proud!) and my porcelein buddha and set out to join the masses.